People with bipolar disorder have strange tendencies, one of them being that we can hear voices in our heads which talk to us while we are in our manic or depressive cycles. Some people even think they are talking to either God, the dead, themselves, or in my case Duke Lagos, my manic alter-ego. Yes, I hear his voice, making me one of the rare examples of bipolar disorder that has this strange sensation. This is very common when someone is manic and is not taking medication. It is even rarer that people are able to talk to these voices but, that is not the case for me. At this point in the dosages of my mediation, I can still hear his voice because I am on a low dosage of Gray Poopon (Lamictal), an anticonvulsant, which means that it is a mood stabilizer.
Duke Lagos (Mania), David Zosel (Equilibrium), Depressive Dave (Depression), are all personified voices that I write about in my book, “Summertime Mania”.
There will be times where Duke talks to me, but as I continue to document my journey with Gray Poopon (Lamictal), it is only a dramatizing personification that I portray to express down to the deepest root of the authenticity of what bipolar mania can do.
Duke Lagos voices racing thoughts in my head, the energy that keeps me awake all of the time, the power behind my creative productivity, and his words are usually comforting. I really don’t have conversations with him, but it is his spirit that lives within my manic mindset, and that is why he is a personification to me. This exact concept applies to Depressive Dave as well, my depressive alter-ego.
Remember, the two characters are merely energies or auras that I personify in my book, “Summertime Mania.” Call them voices if you will, they are only a personification of the person I become when I am severely manic or depressed.
People with bipolar disorder have strange tendencies, one of them being that we can hear voices in our heads that talk to us while we are in our manic and depressive cycle’s. Some people even think they are talking to either God, the dead, themselves, or in my case Duke Lagos. Yes, I hear his voice, making me one of the rare examples of bipolar disorder that has that. This is very common when someone is manic and is not taking medication. At this point in my dosages, I can still hear his voice because I am on a low dosage of Gray Poopon (Lamictal), an anticonvulsant, which means that it is a mood stabilizer.
There will be times where he talks to me, but as I continue to write this documentation of my journey with Gray Poopon, it is only a dramatizing personification that I am portraying to express down to the deepest root of the authenticity of what bipolar mania can do.
Duke Lagos is the voice of the racing thoughts in my head, the energy that keeps me awake all of the time, the power behind my creative productivity, and his words are usually comforting. I really don’t have conversations with him, but it is his spirit that lives within my manic mindset, and that is why he is a personification to me. This exact concept applies to Depressive Dave as well.
Hearing voices doesn’t mean that you are crazy. This happens to a lot of people, it could be your conscience, a monster, a friend, or an alter ego. Crazy is never a right word to describe anything at all unless it’s you winning the lottery.
Psychiatrists have said that writing down the voices that you hear help your state of reality during manic and depressive swings, and that is why I will write down my interpretations of what the two alter egos are telling me. Don’t be alarmed with what I am telling you about myself, these are just subtle personifying dramatizations that will help you understand yourself or a loved one.
I really hope that during my journey with taking Gray Poopon I can feel less of that spiritual energy from the voices in my head. As I am working on improving my physical and mental health, I really hope this all goes away or neutralizes because I never want to transform into Duke or Dave.
All I want to be is me, David Z.
Remember,
“The Zos Knows”
-David Zosel
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