A Love Letter that I Wrote for Some Girl.

Last year, my heart was severely broken by a girl that I dated for a few months before I released my book. In my past, I have started several major projects that I would never finish because of my perfectionistic tendencies. But without her, I wouldn’t have been able to pull the trigger and publish my book. My romance with her gave me the power to accomplish my passionate goals, and that was the greatest gift of all. Without further adieu here is my love letter to SOME GIRL. 

Dear SOME GIRL,

These words are for you because of the ensuing agape. Personally, I write all of the time but this is the hardest thing that I’ve put to paper because I have to play it straight and take my chance.

In our small fleeting moment, you have been the most honest influential-realistic, and the greatest person that will ever have entered my life in my 20’s. You saw right through me more than anyone, and it was an exhilarating freight that perpetuated laughter and smiles.

You were the final push for me to find Phi, the golden symmetrical perception of life’s beauty. My gifted curse has no impact amongst what you are about to read that will unfold in this letter. My clarity is at the greatest that I have ever been.

There is nothing more in the world that I respect more than peoples faith, ambitions, and following of a journey. Your journey is like Odyseuss’, trying to find your way back home to SOME COUNTRY and that is the utmost admirable. You are on an odyssey and I wish I could be in your plans to arrive at that destination alongside.

In the end, the journey’s brought joys that outweigh the pain.

The pain that I have in my heart has brought me this joyous perspective at a pivotal point in my life. You came to me at the right time, but I came at the wrong time for you but that is fine because I want to be your timeless friend.

The best friend that you will ever have.

Maybe someday we can achieve our strong potential of the powerful bond of romanticism. I feel it coming because the stars say that we will align again; in some way.

With this subtle romance, I don’t want to be a footnote in your life. It was the greatest zing of romantic pushes that I have ever had, and that I thank you. I may only exist in the shadows of your heart, but your shadow will always be with me where ever I go. Your presence pervades, but for now, it won’t show.

What we had was short and sweet and you saw it before your eyes, while I felt it in my mind and soul.

The day when you came into my family’s restaurant for pho, I knew that I was in love. When you had coffee with me, I knew that I absolutely needed and had to marry you. My gut told me all of this. Not my heart and head, but with my gut. These three simple words are too strong along with all of the feelings that I have for you. I don’t want you to ever scare you away from me but remain in your life somehow. All I need is your friendship, having you in my life, talk to, laugh and, share ideas with. There will always be a part of me that will love you but not having you at all is worse than nothing in my life.

With your journey, I am ready to go in any direction with you. But right now, you have left me directionless as this is where I have to exit on this highway. You need to keep going, and I don’t want to be a dead end for you.

You steered us to safety before it was too late. Knowing from day one, I knew that I had to be ready for what you needed from me in a relationship and I am ready for it. I seriously am, still, and want to convert to SOME RELIGION, learn SOME LANGUAGE, live in SOME CITY, have kids that go to SOME RELIGIOUS BUILDING and SOME RELIGIOUS SCHOOL, become a good father, taking my life in that direction to find the balance of faith and love with you. Never have I been ready for anything in my entire life.

Love isn’t about three small words, but about the changes that you make. I hope this letter finds you with the hope and optimism that I will make all of these changes for you. I appreciate that you did not want to put me under that kind of pressure, and that is the utmost respectable, but I was ready to make those changes for you.

But if you really did not want me too, then it wasn’t meant to be. 

SOME GIRL, I am ready for this chance to step forward with determination and commitment.

Damn it, I love you. Not the idea, your exterior, but the oh so glorious you. It is your light, charm, passion, wisdom, story-telling, values, culture, and faith that you stow upon me is what I love. Need to mention that beauty mark above your lip. I am going to miss everything about you. 

What you did for me is greatly appreciated and I couldn’t thank you enough. You could have been selfish and ended it later, but you nipped it before our romance got out of hand. In my intuition, I know you are the one for me. But with this glimpse, I know what I am looking for now; a reincarnation of your soul. One can dream. You gave me the love that I need, and now I know all I need is you. You provided a love in my life that is so powerful, giving me the strength and potential to be spectacular, and it was in my hands for a short time. I need to get that back somehow without you in my life, but that subtle sweet sensation came from you. I do not know how I will deal with not having this anymore, but now I am on a quest to find and harness it forever.

It would be so much easier if you were by my side, but for now, I must walk alone. 

This love surpasses all that I had ever had been through. I will never expect you to feel this way or to reciprocate this to me because that would be selfish of me. I hope that I impacted your life in a positive way or will get the opportunity to.

You are the light that gave me the wings to take flight. A gift that will be far away from me, but I need to hold on to all of the little gifts that you gave me close to my heart.

Until we meet again, may your soul be held gently and all of the things you wished for will come to you in the most beautiful way. As I stand afar, I will always be grateful for what we had.

Deep down, I am wishful that one of these many words are the magical words that will bring our love back together. Possibly in another life. 

Thank you for everything.

Once more, I will always love you more than you will ever know. You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever known, the greatest soul that has ever been felt with my heart.

Love will always be in my heart for you.

But for now, I can’t love you anymore.

Sincerely,

David Zosel

Although I never gave this letter to her, I wrote it to cope with the pain. At the time I didn’t understand the notion of why something so good happened to me, and why it was taken away from me despite the relationship being so amazing for the both of us. The reason why I never gave it to her was that I don’t think that she would be able to handle such words because it would have destroyed her emotionally. It was hard for me not to give it to her, but sometimes doing nothing is the hardest thing to do. 

Remember, “The Zos Knows”. 

-David Zosel

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